Just now I answered a question for a friend today who couldn't understand why someone they loved so much had chosen to leave after many years of marriage. Here was my response.
There are so many things that go unanswered in our lives. Sometimes it's years before we get our answers, like the one you get when God keeps you from taking a job that is only revealed much later when the company files bankruptcy or thousands of people are fired and you would have been one of them.
Sometimes we don't get answers at all. I've come to believe that CLOSURE is overrated, and so I just walk away from some things and people without answers at all.
Or, I let them walk away from me with requiring a thing.
I am fortunate to have loved and been loved by some extraordinary men. Some people never even get that. I have made good decisions and bad ones and I have paid for or been rewarded each time....sooner or later. It's just life.
Live it as best you can and don't spend too much time pondering things that will only put lines in your face. Have a great day.